Sick

i am sick, i dont know with what though, my dad says its the flu and so does Adam, so im going to take their word for it and go to the doctors and ask for that medicine, not the vaccine but the medicine. I was fine last night, I fell asleep early but then when i woke up at three this morning i couldnt move, my head was pounding, i have a cough, and a sore throat, and a 100 fever. i had some chai tea this morning which helped my throat a bit but now it hurts again, i think ill go back to my house to lay down for a bit, even though this will be the third time leaving my house this morning. my most recent painting is 6ft x 4ft, it is quite large. my dilemma has been how in the world am i going to get this to my studio class at 8:30. Yesterday i went to doherty hall in the foundry and got a dolly, i put it outside the loading dock on the bottom floor. So i lugged the painting to doherty hall and when i got the the dolly was gone. Piss. So i had to carry it then all the way to the CFA. BUt when i dropped that off i had to go back to my apartment get my book bag and my other canvas and then went back to school. so already that is 4 times ive walked craig st and will not be the last. oh well. i want to sleep though. and i just hope im ok to do 24 hour comic night and day again. i LOVE those. its a lot of fun, everyone should try, but you are shot by then end and will sleep in the next morning.

Adam gave me a really good idea. Last night we discussed that if i were to write a story or a short blurb, then animate a painting out of it. I really like it and was going to do it for my next painting but what i have to do instead is research an artist and immitate their texture, style, layering, etc... not all of those examples but just one. I like the project but i really wanted to do the story but i will get my chance in that.

Im listening to Plumb, i like her a lot. She has new music out and im listening to it right now, she doesnt look as she sounds though, thats the same thing i thought about matthew good. i could picture him from the sound of his voice, but when i finally saw him for the first time i didnt think he looked like what he sounded, now though i think he looks the spitting image of what he sounds like. its cool how things change and develop like that, it is interesting to me.

man i really dont feel well, im freezing but hot at the same time. what should i do for food or drink, i assume a lot if water and soup but i dont have soup, i have macaroni and cheese though. the white cheddar kind. LOVE that stuff. i had grape nuts for breakfast but im not hungry now.

bye,

olive

Resting

ts 4:30 am on a tuesday.(like the counting crows song.) i dont remember what happened last night. when did i fall asleep, where did i fall asleep. im not sure. but like an ass, i dont think i took my medicine, so im going to feel it today.but maybe i did i dunno. Ass ass ass. stupid stupid stupid.

i dont know whats wrong with me lately. all ths sleeping and forgetting things. am i sick? i dont think so. i just made so hot chocolate. it is very good. i hope it calms me down a bit. i made it with milk instead of water. it tastes ten times better that way. i used to only make it with water but now like the milk. i does give me a stomach ache though but i willing to have one to taste the delicious beverage.

i remember how it started but since then im a waste, im a waste

i wish i had more to say

Treat

Good day...bad night.

i finished my paper at about 11:30 today. then went out to breakfast with some of my favorite people. i had my favorite pancakes to. Pamela's has the best by far i think. They are thin and crepe like. They stuff the with strawberries brown sugar and whipped cream. Delish. We talked about a drug dealer named Wally that told rob off by confronting him about not shutting his door. They were in a bad neighborhood so the whole scene was very sketchy. I would have died of fear. But the deal was that drugs be in exchange for test answers during class. Funny stuff.

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i need a hug

i need a cuddle

i need a drink

i need a ride

i need an extension

I did not go out for Halloween. i wanted candy but i had no way of obtaining any because i didnt leave my house to go exploring. Me and Rob went out to get lulu's noodles. i wish jimmy was with us, he loves lulus noodles. it would have been fun to go out to breakfast with him to. i havent taken him to Pamela's yet. After stuffing ourselves at lulu's we watched Sunshine. Then i got super sleepy and went to night night. Then i got up early to work on art history. My favorite candy is any reese's product. Butter cups,fastbreak, nutrageous,and reese's pieces. im not sure which is my favorite, they are all very good. i guess it depends what my mood is if i feel like tiny candy or a bar or a cup. Its convenient that it is such a popular brand so i can rank up the number in my pillow case and sort them out at the end of the night. It tradition for everyone to lay their candy out and count them, sort them, and the best...eat them. I also like twizzlers, they are fun when they are bite size. Do you think candy is better in bite size, i do. Its a nice little treat instead of a meal or a small meal. Because the full candy bars are just too much for me. Its like ice cream, i can only handle it in small amounts and frequently in between. I went for a date to browns cow with a very special person to me. Thats where i found out they liked mint chocolate chip ice cream, a good thing to remember. We also made a neat version of mint chocolate. We took a dark chocolate hersheys bar with a sprig of mint and whipped cream on the top. And presto it was a homemade version of mint chocolate bar. I would eat that again anytime. We only had it once but im sure we will have it again another time. i would like some chocolate milk right now talking about all this candy and mint and ice cream. im not hungry but i would eat something of those things if presented to me right now.

At zerns they have a candy stand, actually two stands but i used to go there a lot on saturday mornings with my friend Marc and his mom. We would browse the shops and the toy store and on special occasions we could get candy from the candy stand. i like to get rootbeer barrels and swedish fish. They did have any reeses products because everything was sold in bulk. But other then candy my favorite treat at zerns was the macadamia nuts. they were toasted, that added a little kick of heightened flavor. I could go for some of them right now to.

Enjoy your candy everyone

5 Hours

never mind, i wasnt on hiatus very long just for the night but i got my painting finished except maybe for some glazes. i want to punch up some of the painting with some glazey fun. Today is Halloween and i dont have any costume. i remember the last real costume i had was s crow. it was an assignment last year for concept identity to make a costume. i have an obsession with birds and crows so it was naturally of me to pick a crow costume to make. I made bird wings and feathers and all. i even had a beak. the wings could flap to. i went all out. i wrote a blog about a year ago about the bird wings, so if you want more details look in october of 2008 section of my blog and you will even see a picture! but that was the last costume i made. the crow one wasnt even for halloween it was for a grade. it was too delicate to wear anywhere else besides the performance i had to give with it. A couple years ago i was a mermaid. I found this green and aqua and emerald colored halter top with silver sequin on it. I used that as my top and went to joan ann fabrics to find a matching material to go with my top. Once i found that i cut out a tail and sewed a long skirt out of the material. So i had a tail and all and i can swim so if i was thrown in water i would be cold but i could swim. Not a real good mermaid if im cold in the water though. im a beached mermaid but with you the feet that ariel was granted. i have to waddle around in the tips of my fins. One year for halloween i was a gorilla in a tutu. i found a gorilla mask and found old black sweat pants and sweater and stuffed it with other pants and sweaters so my whole body was puffed up to look like muscles. then i shoved my plush body into a tutu suit and put the gorilla mask on and i was set. i do not know what possessed me to be such an unusual costume. it wasnt funny it wasnt making a joke with it i was just the figure, which is a little disappointing looking back now but when i was the gorilla in a tutu i liked it. One year i was tinkerbell. I loved that costume. i had this little green dress with wings made of a sheet and coat hangers. my hair was pulled tight into a little bun on my head and i held a small stick for a wand. i had to wear sneakers though to go out trick or treating, but they were white so it didnt really matter too much. another year i was cat woman and rob was batman. i wore black spandex pants and a black spandex shirt. i rolled up a black boa twice around and sewed it together and draped over my neck to look like isis, cat womans cat companion. That was a fun costume. i still have isis til this day. those were the good ones. other years included a mummy and another bird and a snake charmer and a tiger and thats al i can remember. i dont remember they were not good. but i really enjoyed the others. i hope everyone has fun and safe halloween.

Hiatus

because of 24 hour comic night/day

The End

Cranky and sad and hallucinating

I Fell on my Bottom

MODERN VISUAL CULTURE CAN EAT MY SHORTS!


This is my least favorite class. It is an art history course that goes on and on and on. My professor looks like a troll. He has yellow eyes, no on but cats and sparkly vampires have yellow eyes. Christa says maybe he has jaundice. He looks like a dork sitting in class talking about stuff that he tries to make puns at and be the funny man. GAY!

i screwed around in painting today and looked at a book the susanne gave me. I thought it was very thoughtful and encouraging of her to go through her book collection and scan some paintings for us to look at. ironically she picked a lucian freud piece, he is one of my favorite artists. then today in concept we received a very vague and challenging project. i cannot even begin to explain it to you. i have no ideas about where to start. but i think brainstorming will assist.

u have 35 more minutes in this lame class. i want to go home and start to work on my painting, at least i hope i do. my new medicine routine has left me very sleepy throughout the day. im taking a 20 mg sedative and a 5 mg other sedative. so double tired pills. my other medicine was a stimulant that would off-set the zyprexa and trilafon sedatives giving me a normal amount of energy in the morning. now i wake up fine but once i take my first batch of pills i get a visit from the sand man. who made that up? ill google that at some point.

i hope that i am improving in each painting i do. i would like do build onto the skills i already have. my crits have been going fairly well but i would love to paint a show-stopper. a painting that will blow everyone away. lets pray and continue my studies